All kinds of thoughts and questions were racing
through my mind, all the how’s, whys, when’s, the Ifs and buts, what did I ever
do to deserve this was running through my mind. In my defense to convince
myself that the doctors report could be wrong, I said to myself I have been
faithful to my girlfriend for almost a year now, she’s the only person I have
been having unprotected sex with though as a Christian it is wrong
to have sex before marriage; Is this Gods way of teaching me a lesson because I
desecrated His perfection and ignored His goals, I don’t do drugs to be
affected by any unsterilised needle nor do I cut my hair with the barbers
clipper so how did I get infected with this incurable disease.
Feeling guilty I called my Kristine to come
over so I break this heartbreaking unfortunate news to her. Didn’t quite know
how I was going to go about it or how she going to take the news but she needed
to know. I opened my mouth to speak and every word I uttered was accompanied by
a tear; I mustered courage and told Kristine all that the doctor had said to me
but she didn’t look surprised as she just sat there staring into my hopeless wet
eyes. Finally she spoke and what she could say is she cheated on me a couple of
times, oh my God! I exclaimed, how could you do this to me? I asked. This is
not true, it cannot be.
My questions on how I contracted this deadly
disease have been answered. I know I was infected by my long-term regular
partner. When we first met, we always used condoms. However, as the
relationship grew, we stopped using them she said she trusted me and I need to
trust her but believe me, Trust is no protection!
At the
age of 22, the last thing one would expect to take home from a casual sexual
relationship is a chronic and incurable disease and that is what I got. Just a
second after closing the door behind me after walking Kristine out, I collapsed
in tears, sobs choked me, filled with the urge to vomit. It lasted a few long
minutes. I had never experienced that. How could she do that she was a good
girl, she was my girl.
I came to accept that am now living with HIV
aids, I told My Mom, Dad, Pastor and close friends though it wasn’t easy. I
called Rose to let her know I have forgiven her; hard call to make.
Today I am
still Andre. I’m still living. I get questions like is my infection a punishment
from God? No get real God and I are tight. Can I still have sex? Duh the
disease didn’t castrate me. However, I have to inform any potential sex partner
before engaging in sex. Honestly to date, I haven’t really wanted to go down
the sex-road. However, not having sex is not a punishment I’m giving myself.
It’s a choice I’m making about my needs right now.
Do I have any regrets? Yes I wish I didn’t
think I was invincible to the disease, I wish I had used protection all the time.
I want to let everyone reading this; whether gay, lesbian, straight, white,
black, Hispanic, Asian, Middle-Eastern, purple, pink or blue, because everyone
may be, and can be affected by this
epidemic. So be careful and be on the lookout, don’t take chances like I did.
This is an eye opener and am really glad to have chanced on this. Trust indeed is no protection against this disease
ReplyDeleteHmmm, this has triggered my consciousness to be careful on anybody i decide to live my life with. Touched by the words. I now see a new sensation of GH bloggers. Versatile Andre! In fact, you are the best.
ReplyDeleteGood work
ReplyDeleteSo what's the moral of the story? Don't have unprotected sex? Don't assume your partner is as faithful as you have been for over a year (what did he mean by "faithful for over a year"? Was he unfaithful before?)? Break up with your partner if they admit to being unfaithful (he never said he contracted the disease from her!)? Practice safe sex after finding out you have HIV? How to REALLY become a true Christian believer after you contract HIV?
ReplyDeleteThe last thing on my mind would be how I'm not "INVINCIBLE" to HIV as a "SEX" driven Christian! As a Christian, you ought to know that anything is liable to happen to you, hence why part of your daily "WALK WITH THE LORD" is to ALWAYS remind yourself about being prepared and PROTECTED! Apparently this individual has failed in applying his own religious beliefs and doctorine to himself!
Let's say a Fire Fighter goes on a nation wide campaign to teach people about the dangers of playing with matches. During his speech he tells you a story about a personal life changing event he recently had that REALLY CONVINCED him that playing with matches around gas is dangerous. He States he had been a fire fighter for over ten years, but recently realized that he too is not immune to the dangers of playing with fire! What would you think about him?
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ReplyDeleteBless up
ReplyDeleteInspirational message.
ReplyDeleteMuch appreciated
Thanks for sharing. It's an eye opener. God bless you my dear.
ReplyDeleteGreat piece Bro . This piece will surely impact someone's life. In fact I have taken my fair share out of it. Bless up
ReplyDeleteU nailed it bruv..
ReplyDeleteToo much emphasis were laid on the sexual cause of the disease, each cause and mode of spread of the virus should have been given at least equal attention. Stereotypes or no stereotypes, family, religious leaders and close but trusted friends must always know your status to support victims emotionally, bravo for that.Though Rose never looked surprised you had the virus, she could have been negative, since it's an STI, both partners must test to confirm your status bro, yet forgiving her was the best thing you did to yourself. Presentation was absolutely perfect and the end was nailed right, this is because the viewer sees the writer to be confessing and in the end comes across a great piece of advice and realising the writer stood 'clean'. Lastly, the writer should advise readers on regular HIV checkup, the difference between HIV and AIDs and the avoidance of stereotype and other forms of stigma to victims of the virus in society. Well done bro.
ReplyDeleteYo but you don't got aids tho right😕
ReplyDeleteBrilliant just brilliant. An Edifying piece, I've personally taken a lot from this write-up.
ReplyDeleteAn eye opener. Trust is no protection
ReplyDelete🙏🏼🙏🏼
ReplyDeleteMarvelous piece. It's definite eye opener for all. Keep up the good work Andre
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